A former soldier who has spent the last 12 years battling mental health issues is set to have three poems and his first crime novel published.
Daniel Worley, of Chestnut Close, Wymington, has suffered with anxiety, panic attacks and agoraphobia since he left the army in 2001 after four years of service.
But he says he has beaten his demons by putting pen to paper and writing poetry and his first crime novel. The poems have been published by United Press.
And he is publishing his book on Amazon himself on September 17 on his daughter Lucy’s third birthday.
Daniel, 32, said: “I left the army because I was being pressured into it by the girl I was with at the time. It was a very hard decision to leave because I absolutely loved it.
“But when I came out I very quickly became depressed, which led to anxiety and panic attacks. When I was at my worst in 2005 I remember having a panic attack in a supermarket and then I didn’t go outside for ten days.”
Not long after he had joined the army Daniel had witnessed his best friend being blown up by a grenade on a training exercise.
Just before he left he had completed a six-month tour in Bosnia.
He added: “You see things in the army that most normal people will never see in their lives. In the army you’re kind of expected just to deal with it. You have to just be a man and get on with it.
“It’s not until you get out of the army and you stop and think to yourself everything you have seen and been through. Once you leave that’s it, there’s no support there. You are just left on your own.
“It wasn’t long between coming out that I started to get depressed. When you come out it’s a massive shock to the system. When you’re in the army everything is done for you and then you come out and you just don’t know where to start.
“Even starting a job is strange. You don’t have the same connection to the guy sitting next to you. In the army the guy standing next to you is responsible for your life, it’s very hard to get your head around.”
Daniel began writing when he was in Bosnia and continued writing more when he left the army. He says writing and exercise really pulled him out of his depression.
He added: “It was just a way of getting all my negative thoughts out of my head.
“I could put all my bad thoughts into my characters. It really helped me get through it. I started to exercise as well and that was a massive help. I now run three to four miles every other day. If I don’t run then I begin to get my depressed again. It has helped me so much.”
Daniel is now set to have three of his poems published in the National Poetry Anthology and another collection of poems called Between The Lines.
His poem ‘Homeless’ was picked as a winning entry out of 5,000 others in a competition run by United Press.
His other two poems ‘Shadow’, which is about mental health, and ‘Goodbye’, about his late nan who suffered with Alzheimer’s Disease, will be published in Between The Line. And his novel ‘Become’ is a murder revenge story. A dad seeks revenge on the man who killed his wife and daughter.
Daniel is currently writing the prequel to ‘Become’.